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My
stepfather, who is closing hard on his 90th birthday, informed
me with great glee that he had been served a jumbo, juicy,
jelly donut with his breakfast yesterday morning. I explained
that the occasion was sometimes known as Fat Tuesday and went
on to connect it with Ash Wednesday, reminding him that people
in Europe often used up their cooking fat on the day before
Lent, the better to prepare for the culinary leanness of the
season. Which explanation he accepted, whereupon he laughed
and said: “I think we should have Fat Tuesday every
Tuesday.”
Over
the course of the Christian year, there are seasons that are
fat and seasons that are lean. Lent is one of the leaner ones.
And today….Ash Wednesday….may be the leanest of the lean.
Today marks the beginning of Lent, a season of forty days plus
Sundays that carries us to Easter, one of the “fattest” of
all seasons. As concerns Lent, the mood is penitence and the
color, purple (which explains my tie). The visual symbols of
the day are the ashes, whether we use them or not.
What
we do with them is smudge ourselves, in effect making
ourselves dirty for all the world to see. To the uninformed,
it is akin to going out with spinach between our teeth,
lipstick applied crookedly, or a zipper unzipped. The ashes
call attention to ourselves (as a visible measure of
unkemptness), leading the casual observer to ask: “Whassup
with that?”
The
smudge has multiple interpretations, but clearly suggests two
things. First, that we are sinful. In spite of our best
efforts to clean ourselves up, we are dirt. Second, that we
are mortal. In spite of our best efforts to keep ourselves
going, we are dust.
From
which we proceed to a pair of questions.
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Where
does Lent begin….geographically?
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With
what text does Lent begin….biblically?
Which
generate a pair of answers.
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Lent
begins in the wilderness. If you came here thinking we
were going to start on top of the mountain, you thought
wrong.
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Lent
begins with a story of Jesus (in the wilderness) fighting
temptation.
How
comes the temptation, you ask? It comes as a force….a
power….a yearning that is all but overwhelming. Does it come
from beyond him? Yes. Does it come from within him? Yes. I
mean, when it gets really down and dirty in your life….I am
talking about that wrestling match that takes place between
your better self and your lesser self….you tell me how
temptation comes to you. Then I’ll tell you how it came to
Jesus.
There
are three temptations. You know them by heart. The first
invites Jesus to turn stones into bread. Jesus was
hungry….“famished,” the text suggests. Real hunger is
not a momentary tickle in the stomach that leads one to say:
“Well, it’s getting along towards supper time.” Real
hunger….well, I don’t know what real hunger is, never
having felt it. But having toyed with any number of diets over
any number of years, I know the power that food has over me.
Or as the chronically-overweight grandmother of Peter Gomes
said in response to the nagging of her doctor: “I figure,
better to die from havin’ it than die from wantin’ it.”
But
this isn’t about diet. This is about survival. Yet Jesus,
who was not willing to let survival call the tune for his
life, declined the offer.
Leading
to the second temptation: “Worship me and I’ll give you
all the kingdoms of this world.” If the first temptation
deals with a basic need (survival), the second deals with a
basic desire (power). It’s a temptation that surfaces early.
You sense it along about the second grade, when you sit at
your desk and fantasize about how things would be different if
you were the teacher (with complete control of the grade book
and the ruler) and she was forced to sit in row four, seat
three. But Jesus, who could have done a lot with power (living
as he did in an occupied country), was not easily bought.
Temptation
number three followed shortly thereafter. “If you are really
who you say you are, prove it by jumping from way up here to
way down there.” Surely God will suspend the laws of gravity
for you….turn the ground into a giant sofa pillow for
you….outfit a team of angels with catcher’s gloves for
you. But Jesus, feeling no need to prove his identity
heroically, said: “Thanks, but no thanks.”
But
here’s the part I want you to get.
And when
the devil had ended every temptation, he departed from Jesus until
a more opportune time.
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Oh,
how wonderful it would be if we could fight it, defeat it, and
be done with it….temptation, I mean. But like the tide, it
keeps coming at you. Most times, it can be wrestled to a draw.
And there may even be lengthy periods of total remission. But
there will come “an opportune time” when you are
especially vulnerable. Maybe because your pride has been
injured, your ego wounded, your contributions
under-appreciated, or your guard lowered.
Coming
back into the house from my snow-covered driveway at 5:45 this
morning, Free Press in hand, I read the story in the
second section about the 45-year-old treasurer of Christ the
King Lutheran Church in Grosse Pointe Woods who, over the
course of the last several years, managed to embezzle over
$700,000 from the church coffers. Which brought to mind
November of 1991 and the day I discovered that the treasurer
of the church I then served had diverted $151,000 of church
monies into her own accounts.
At
the time of the crime, she was 57 years old….twice a
mother….three times a grandmother…. daughter of the
long-time church secretary….choir singer….bell
ringer….class member. She knew full well that what she did
was wrong. She also knew that everything she was doing cut
against the grain of everything she grew up believing. Neither
by nature nor by practice was she immoral or ignorant.
So
where did her temptation come from? From all appearances, both
the outside and the inside. Temptation came from the outside
in the form of a young gigolo lover who said: “You light up
my life. Together, we could have a wonderful future. But I
have this idea for a business. How’s this for a plan? You
stake me and I’ll marry you.”
Temptation
came from the inside in the form of a growing feeling that
life had screwed her, that her first husband had dumped her,
that her church had underpaid and under-loved her, and if God
was really as good as they said, she would surely have done
better than she did. And in her 57th year, all of that came
together….as temptation found “a more opportune time.”
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My
friends, short of the resurrection, there is no permanent
victory. Which is why Lent always begins in the wilderness and
spotlights our struggle to fight and win another
round….against both the evil around us and the evil within
us. Oh, if only we could lick it and forget it, put it to
flight and see it no more. But that would make us better than
Jesus who, if the Bible be believed, left the wilderness, but
the wilderness never completely left him. How does the Bible
say it? “He was tempted….in every way….as we are.”
Imagine that. As one who spends a lot of time in the
wilderness, I find that most days, I am glad for the company.
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