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Not that I am all
that superstitious, but I can’t ever recall visiting a
graveyard in the dark. Even I, who preach that death is always
normal, never final, and seldom catching, would find that
"spooky." I would wait until dawn, or at least the
half-light of dawn. Which made sense to Matthew, Mark and
Luke, too, given that they placed no one at the tomb on that
first Easter Sunday until there was at least a glimmer of
light. In fact Mark, who wrote the story first, says that
while two women went to the tomb "very early" on the
first day of the week, it was clearly "when the sun had
risen."
But we’re not
reading Mark this morning. We’re reading John. And John
eliminates one of Mark’s women and any trace of Mark’s
sun. "While it was still dark," John says,
"Mary Magdalene came to the tomb" (allegedly to
anoint the body with spices, although John doesn’t say). But
her purpose does not concern me, so much as her timing. In
John’s gospel, Easter begins in the dark.
I figured that out
a couple of weeks ago….daydreaming while driving.
"Eureka," I said. "That’ll preach."
Leading my wife to say: "I wonder if it already
has." So, having been made aware that the Internet is
literally chock full of sermons (including six years’ worth
of mine), she went surfing and surfaced eleven sermons
entitled "While It Was Still Dark." All of which I
read. None of which I copied. To whatever degree I might be
inclined to steal material, I am very picky.
Except there was
one hint….in one sermon….that when John said that Easter
began "in the dark," he was talking about a
spiritual state of mind, rather than a specific time of day.
Some Easters are
set in more darkness than others. And, as degrees of
illumination go, this would not appear to be one of the
brighter ones. In the land where it first happened, far more
people are going into tombs than coming out of them. It is not
gallows humor to wonder whether there will be a suicide bomber
in the Church of the Holy Sepulchre this Easter….or at the
Garden Tomb. I mean, if you can’t tell which spot is the
right spot, why not kill people at both spots? Simultaneously,
a strange and deadly game of "cat and mouse" goes on
in Ramallah. While local Jews who finish the Seder meal with
that wonderfully-wistful chant of "Next year in
Jerusalem," probably offer a prayer of gratitude that
they aren’t there this year. I dream of leading one more
trip to the Holy Land before "my trophies at last I lay
down." But the way things are going over there, I’d
better polish my trophies and bide my time.
Not that this is
the "best of times" here, either. I think we are at
war, although the technicalities of declaration escape me.
What I do know is that it will likely spread before it ends,
and it will not end any time soon. Nor are we living without
fear locally, given that things previously considered
unthinkable have now become altogether possible. Not that
heroism hasn’t followed in the wake of terrorism. There is
more grit in us than our enemy thought….maybe even more grit
in us than we thought. I loved Thursday’s CNN report about
the church immediately adjacent to Ground Zero that not only
miraculously survived being leveled, but went from likely
closure before September 11 to a brand new ministry since
September 11, serving a congregation of volunteers and
firefighters brought to the area by the events of September
11.
As a congregation,
their biggest hurdle was….and still is….to clean the
building of the dust and debris that keeps settling upon (and
within) it. For them….and, I suspect, for many of us….this
Easter is more gritty than giddy. Which can take its toll on
the soul, don’t you know. And, in some quarters, already
has.
All of which came
home to me while listening to a CD the other day. This CD.
Which was a gift CD, personally "burned" for me by
my daughter for Christmas. In my day, to "burn"
something was to destroy it. Today, to "burn" a CD
is to create one….most likely on the outer edges of
legality. But this is a wonderful gift….18 songs chosen by
Julie, because each of them is (in some way) connective of
Julie and Daddy. Don’t ask me to explain. It would take far
too long, and I might start to cry.
One of the songs,
however, dates from the very late sixties and was both written
and recorded by Don McLean under the title "American
Pie." People have been trying to interpret his lyrics for
years. Most everybody agrees that the song is about the
history of rock and roll and what happened to rock and roll
after Buddy Holly died in a plane crash on the third of
February, 1959. But near the end of the song’s longer
version can be heard these words:
I met a girl who
sang the blues
and I asked her for some happy news,
but she just smiled and turned away.
So I went down to the sacred store
where I’d heard the music years before,
but the man there said the music wouldn’t play.
And in the
streets the children screamed,
the lovers cried, and the poets dreamed,
but not a word was spoken.
The church bells all were broken.
And the three
men I admire most,
the Father, Son and the Holy Ghost,
they caught the last train for the coast,
the day the music died.
And they were
singin’
Bye, bye, Miss American Pie,
Drove my Chevy to the levee and the levee was dry….
Now I know that
"American Pie" is not a song that was written for or
about "church." The "Chevy" was meant to
be a symbol of Americana, while the "levee" was the
name of a bar in New Rochelle, New York, that closed. And the
three admired men were not the Father, Son and Holy Ghost of
Trinitarian fame, but rather Buddy Holly, Ritchie Valens
("La Bamba") and the Big Bopper ("Chantilly
Lace")….all of whom perished in the same crash.
But sometimes
words take on a life of their own, touching us in ways that
the poet who wrote them never intended. In a world where
"blues singers" abound, you have come on down to
this "sacred store," having heard the music years
before, because you could use some happy news. Which we have.
I mean, if not here, where? And if not today, when?
Not that Mary
Magdalene first interpreted it as "happy news." Yes,
we’re back to her, now. She comes to the tomb in the dark….alone,
in the dark….but does not go in, in the dark….even though
she could, in the dark….because there is no stone blocking
her entrance, in the dark.
Her first thought
is what mine would have been. Grave robbers! Somebody snatched
his body and left no forwarding address. Which is exactly what
she told Peter and John when she ran to get them. They, of
course, had to go see for themselves. For while Mary was a
witness, she was also a woman. And, in that day (sad to say),
being a woman discounted her testimony.
Even today,
"who" tells you something can make a world of
difference. Were that not true, why would we have coined the
phrase "consider the source." Good news isn’t
worth much unless you trust the newscaster.
And who is
broadcasting today’s good news? Not Mary. But clergy. And we
clergy have to face the fact, this morning, that the
believability of the message is directly proportional to the
trustworthiness of the messenger. And, taken as a whole, we
are not giving evidence that we are all that trustable. From
priest to preacher, our professionalism has been compromised.
And with it, our professing has been compromised, too.
To be sure, ours
is not easy work. And the institutions in which some of us do
it are not always kind. But while less-than-perfect
circumstances may explain us, they should never excuse us.
Meaning that one of the first resurrections we servants of God
should pray for this Easter is the resurrection of our
reputations…..so that those who employ us might, again,
sense within us:
-
certainty in
our vocation
-
clarity in
our expression
-
responsibility
in our sexuality
-
fidelity in
our marriage
-
and (yes)
originality in our sermons
"If the
trumpet gives forth an uncertain sound," says Paul,
"who shall prepare for the battle?" (I Cor. 14:8)
Which, I would suggest to my colleagues of the cloth, is a
clarion call for us to tune up and play right.
That being said,
what is the good news that the "sacred store" has
handed us to preach? Namely this. That, once upon an Easter
day, "death could not keep its prey." And it will
not keep us.
Not that death was
escapable then….or now. The last time I looked, death was
all over the place. I buried Mildred on Wednesday, Kristine on
Friday, Jesus on Friday, Rod buried Virginia on Saturday, and
I shall do the same for Denny on Tuesday. Death is everywhere.
Why, death is grabbing little kids right off the streets in
Detroit and senior citizens right out of bed in Birmingham.
Would you believe that death walks right into hospitals….doesn’t
even stop at the desk.…shows no credentials….gets on the
elevator….gets off the elevator….and snatches people off
the operating tables. And (worse yet) from life support
systems. Death is a bully (sometimes a benign and friendly
bully, but a bully, nonetheless). But even though death has a
mean grab, death has a weak grip. Meaning that death can’t
hold what death grabs….at least when God stares death down
and says: "You….yes, you….let those people go….right
now….you hear me….drop ‘em." And death does….drop
‘em, I mean. For while death is a pitcher with a wicked
curve, God is a catcher with everlastingly long arms.
What’s up, you
ask? Well, Jesus, for starters. And you, too, someday. I
believe that about him. And I believe that about you. I
believe it unashamedly, categorically, even defiantly. In a
1999 essay in New Yorker Magazine, writing under the
title "Confessions of a Churchgoer," novelist John
Updike calls our presence in a church like this, on a day like
this, "an act of defiance."
So when they ask
you at brunch where you have been today, start by saying that
you’ve been to church. And if they push you further, tell
them you’ve been to the Methodist church. And if, like a lot
of people, they insist that you put a name with a faith, tell
them that you’ve been to Bill Ritter’s church (although it’s
not, even in the slightest, "Bill Ritter’s
church"). But when they bore in big time, I want you to
say: "I went to celebrate the resurrection of Jesus
Christ from the dead (before adding, with equal measures
of defiance and confidence) and the promise of something
new for me." Because, where the promise of the
resurrection is concerned, there’s a connection between
future benefits down the road and present benefits on the
road.
But back to Mary
Magdalene….she of the less-than-stellar reputation. Mary
went to anoint Jesus in the dark. But I would argue that she
is living proof that, on Easter, you do not have to die to
experience new life. In fact, wouldn’t it be fair to say
that Mary is the second person raised from the dead that
morning?
Not right away,
mind you. She had to go get the boys first. But then they went
away and left her alone. Which was when she saw him….Jesus,
I mean….although she first mistook him for the gardener
(somebody on landscape detail). Every cemetery needs
landscapers. Cut the grass. Rake the grass. Make sure the
markers don’t become overgrown with grass.
But then he says
her name…."Mary"….and the resurrection ceases to
be a mystery, becoming instead an experience. But isn’t that
what Charles Wesley said in that "thousand tongues"
hymn we Methodists love to sing:
He speaks, and
listening to his voice,
new life the dead receive.
The mournful, broken hearts rejoice,
the humble poor, believe.
I imagine that
Mary lived for a long time on the fumes of that momentary
brush with eternity. I imagine I could, too. And already have.
Friday night, Kris
and I were enjoying a late, quiet dinner out. Just the two of
us. A week’s worth of services behind us. Only this one
ahead of us. "What are you going to say on Sunday?"
she asked. I reminded her about Easter beginning in the dark
for Mary….and for a lot of people. Then I spoke of my hope
that the resurrection might shed, for some, a little light.
"It sounds like you’re not sure," she said.
"Well," I countered, "you’ve got to admit
that this year’s darkness is thicker than the usual
darkness. And while I believe that the resurrection will
dispel much of it someday, I want to convince people that the
resurrection can brighten some of it this day."
"Well,"
she said, "isn’t that what you and I have been quietly
demonstrating since eight years ago May" (which is when
our son decided that the long-term pain of living was greater
than any short-term pain associated with dying….so he didn’t….go
on living, I mean).
But we did.
Hesitantly, at first. Never easily. Occasionally
uncomfortably. But our mere presence, today, suggests to some
that life goes on….and that morning, while sometimes slow in
coming, is both inevitable and worth waiting for.
When people go
through what we went through, they have a way of finding me.
In part, because you send them to me. They come. We talk. They
have more questions than I have answers. All I really have is
my story and the fact that I am able to tell it eight years
later. Surprisingly, it’s enough.
To one I said:
"If we can make it, you can."
To which she shot
back: "That’s because the two of you are
survivors."
"No," I
said, "that’s because the two of us are
believers."
The sun rises.
God’s son
rises.
Our son
rises.
Not because life
is good. But because God is.
Note: My debts for
this sermon are few and easily paid. I frankly can’t recall
(or trace) the oblique reference in the Internet sermon about
"John’s darkness" having more to do with a
condition of the spirit than a specific hour of the morning.
So to whoever thought of it first, thanks.
Peter Gomes of
Harvard introduced me to John Updike’s quotation about
"an act of defiance." In fact, Peter built a whole
sermon around it in 2000 under the title, "An Act of
Defiance."
My reference to
"the resurrection of clergy reputations" grows out
of the onslaught of newspaper stories about Roman Catholic
priests who pressed a spiritual/sexual advantage over
vulnerable parishioners….the realization that any number of
Protestant clergy have done the same….and the ongoing local
controversy about plagiarism and its place in sermon
preparation.
Finally, Don
McLean’s "American Pie" can be thoroughly
researched on the Internet. Somehow the lyrics seem strangely
descriptive for the times in which we live.
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