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I
was serving my first student church in Napoleon, Michigan. It
was a quiet Saturday morning, when the phone rang and one of
the young girls of the congregation asked for me. She was a
lovely, fragile young lady, about eighteen or nineteen years
of age. “Rev. Cheatham,” she said, (that’s what I was
called back then) “ I need your help.” She went on to
explain that her father had pushed his 45 automatic service
pistol into her stomach and said: “I probably ought to shoot
us both and just end it.” Then he went into the kitchen and
sat at the table holding his gun, trying to decide what to do.
I
gave Diane a special hug and went to their house where I found
the father, still in the kitchen, gun in hand. I sat down
across from him. He placed the pistol on the table,
and began to tell his story. He had been a master
sergeant for an intelligence unit in the Pacific theater of
operations during World War II. It was his task to select the
two men who would hit the beaches in the first wave of every
island invasion landing.
They
were always killed.
He
repeatedly tried to pass
the job to his unit commander, but it was always passed
back to him. So before every landing, he had to select two men
he knew would be killed. He managed to return from the war
without any physical wounds. However, the damage to his soul
was enormous. His echoes from the past informed him that he
should not be alive, and that he was unworthy of anyone’s
love. We got him through that day, and back on track – at
least for the short term.
I
realized that his daughter also had echoes from the past which
gave her spirits of infirmity, severely weakening and limiting
her life. Her father had been divorced five times. Her mother,
who obviously had spirits of infirmity working within her, had
also been divorced numerous times. This lovely young girl had
bounced back and forth between whomever’s marriage was in
tact at the time. Her echoes told her that no relationships
last, and when they went bad she should run for safety.
Eventually
she met a young man who understood and cared for her, and they
decided to marry. I warned her of the echoes and infirming
spirits, but she said that she could never leave this young
loving husband of hers. However, when their relationship fell
into a valley (all relationships have peaks and
valleys)….she fled. She eventually returned, and began to
erase those old messages and replace them with affirming ones.
Echoes
from the past can produce spirits of infirmity which limit our
lives and make us far less than God would have us become.
Steve
Wende, the senior minister in San Antonio where I spend my
Texas time, told of a Canadian clergyman who announced one
Sunday that for forty-five years he believed that he
worshipped Jesus Christ. Now he realized that he was
worshipping something else. For him it was a god, made up of
two words: “Measure Up.” Most of what he accomplished
during his years of ministry were not actually for the benefit
of the Kingdom, or in obedience to Jesus Christ. They were
unconscious attempts to “Measure Up” to the standards set
by others, or arbitrarily imposed by himself. When I consider
that the most researched part of our conference journal is the
statistical section, I might believe this Canadian
clergyperson is not alone. Many feel the need to see how we
“Measure Up” with our peers. Is my church as large? As
successful? Is my salary as high? How does my building stack
up to theirs? How about the attendance?
I
would venture that it is not only clergy who suffer this
malady. I imagine that most decisions concerning profession,
expenditures, housing and general life activities stem from
the need to “Measure Up.”
Is my house as nice as others? Are my clothes as good?
How about my car?…and so it goes. Perhaps one explanation
for the 696 raceway is this competitive need to measure
up…and not be passed by others.
The
irony is that this need may drive one to succeed
professionally, but does not allow one to relax and enjoy the
success earned. You must measure up tomorrow, and the tomorrow
after that. You simply cannot lean back and enjoy the fruits
of your labors.
When
I began to consider the echoes from the past which generate
spirits of infirmity, I see an endless number. Let me give you
some more:
Whenever
we sing hymns, I look out into the congregation and always see
those whose lips are not moving, and some with pained
expressions on their faces. These unmoving lips and pained
expressions belong to people whose echoes tell them they
cannot sing (or perhaps with some men, that singing is sissy
stuff.) Long ago when they began to sing, someone told them
they could not. Because of that, they simply cannot enter
fully into all the joy of worship. When they first began to
walk, they did not do well. When they first began to talk they
did not do well either, but no one told them. So, not knowing
they could not, they learned to walk and speak. Practically
anyone who can speak can learn to sing, if they practice and
are helped. There are those who cannot draw, cannot dance,
cannot do something,
simply because someone’s negative comments placed a spirit
of infirmity in their souls. I relate to that issue in a
couple of ways. I have a daughter who enjoyed singing when she
was little, up until the moment when her singing teacher at
school told her she could not sing well. Now she no longer
sings. I now realize that when I was a child, I sang in the
cracks, rarely on
pitch. No one told me I was bad. I now understand why the
director of the children’s choir at church had tears in her
eyes when I showed up. However, she never said anything
destructive to me. Neither did my mother. She just let me sing
around the house, hoping and praying my ear would improve. As
a result, I eventually learned, and it adds a wonderful
dimension of joy to my life.
On
the other hand, I did receive a spirit of infirmity while
growing up. As a child I was determined to learn to play the
clarinet. I practiced hours every day, and studied from one of
the finest clarinetists in
the country. When I was in the ninth grade, I played first
chair solo in the Grosse Pointe High School band. The next
year I was first chair solo in the all-state band. I should
have known I played reasonably well. However, my instructor
probably felt that I needed to be prodded to not become
complacent. This is the message he repeatedly gave to me. He
was Italian, so I will say it as I continued to hear it:
“Dick-a my boy, you one-a nice-a fella, but you no can-a
play the clarinet.” For years, performing was painful for
me. In spite of what anyone else said to affirm me, this
message from the one who counted most caused me to believe I
was always being judged. If anyone really knew music, they
would know
I was not very good.
It
took many years to get over that. First
I erased the old message. That can never be done
completely. I did it in part by reinterpreting it –
understanding what was said, and why it was said. Then I
covered it over with the positive affirmations I received.
Finally, I was able to enjoy playing the music I worked so
hard to create.
I
have found that a good source of the positive affirmations is
Scripture. I believe Scripture is divinely inspired, and
when people read it faithfully they can hear the word
of God speaking through the words of Scripture. So here are
some affirming words from Scripture for you. They are words
which will override the destructive echoes from the past which
have given you spirits of infirmity.
The
touchstone of my life is Romans 8:28. “We know that in all
things God works for the good of those who love him and are
called according to his purpose.” All situations have a way
of deteriorating. Things can go bad. Like you, I have been
given enough negative messages to justify wallowing in
self-pity, blaming others, or waiting to be rescued. However,
this passage overrides the negative with the spirit of power
and love and self-discipline, of which II Timothy speaks.
I’ve learned to couple it with Matthew 7:7.
“Ask and you shall receive, seek and you shall find,
knock and it shall be opened to you.” I have
also learned that
God does not always give me what I ask for, but what I need at
that moment. I do not always receive that which I seek, but
– again – God provides what I require for the occasion.
And while I may be knocking fervently on the wrong door, the
right one opens if I take the time to look. God does not leave
us in the valleys. Knowing this has changed my life. I no
longer believe there are dead ends – anywhere – even when
we take our last breath.
Back
in the 60s, a
survey was made of people living in retirement villages and
nursing homes. It
revealed that elderly Christians were more afraid of death
than non-Christians. It seems they were overly concerned with
the awaiting judgment. In far too many instances, the Good
News of Jesus Christ was distorted into bad news by broken
people in a broken society who were guided by the spirits of
infirmity rather than the Spirit of God. They may have been
well- intentioned, but they were misguided. Let me tell you at
this moment that a prevailing understanding of sin as a sort
of virus which permeates the soul, was never a part of the
teachings of Jesus. The word “sin,” as we now understand
it, never appeared in Scripture. What we translate as
“sin” is a word which literally means “to fall short,”
or “to miss the mark.” Another word means “to stray”
or “to err.” As fallible humans we miss the mark and we
err with regularity, and it bothers us. When Jesus met people
in need, he often greeted
them with: “Your failings are forgiven.” Part of
the Good News was that these failing should not be a burden
which weighs heavily on our souls and removes the joys of
living and makes us fearful of God’s judgment. So here is
the passage to override those messages. It comes from one who
experienced the reality of what he said: Paul of Tarsus. He
writes in II Corinthians 5: 17-20: “If anyone is in Christ
he is a new creation. The old has passed away and the new has
come. All this is from God who was in Christ reconciling us to
himself, not counting our failings against us but entrusting
us with the message of reconciliation.”
Paul
was transformed from an angry bigot full of himself to an
apostle who wrote one of the most beautiful love passages you
will ever read (I Corinthians 13). This happened when he
turned from the messages of the world and embraced Jesus
Christ.
Still,
there are those of you who will say: “I don’t really
belong among God’s people. If you knew me – really knew me
– you would know that is true.” To this Paul says (in
Ephesians 2:19): “You are no longer strangers and aliens,
but you are fellow citizens with God’s people. You are a
member of God’s household.” Peter adds (1 Peter 2:10):
“Once you were no people (you were nobody).
Now you are God’s people. Once you were without
mercy. Now you have received mercy.” Paul says the moment
you turn to God in faith, you become part of God’s people.
The past is behind you. You are a new creation.
Incidentally,
let me give you another echo from the past that generates a
spirit of infirmity. We all have been told this at some time
in our lives: “What will other people think?” If you want
to strap your soul and kill your creativity, let that one take
control of you. You will never be able to think in terms of
God’s will for you. What other people say and think will
dominate your life. Without a show of hands, how many of you
wore nice, clean underwear…just in case a truck hits you?
If
you are to receive God’s Spirit of freedom and empowerment,
you finally have to become free of those echoes. You also need
to let go of those burdens caused by past mistakes and
misdeeds. Take them to God-in-Christ in prayer. Share them,
and leave them. For some this may be easy; but for others, it
is nearly impossible. So many of us men have been told: “Do
not show your weakness.” “You can do it by yourself.”
“You don’t need help.” This is one reason men resist going to a counselor. (“I can ruin my marriage or go nuts
without anyone else’s help.”) I see so many people with
heavy burdens, who just cannot let them go. Some are obviously
weighed down. Others hide it well, but still bear the weight
within themselves. How does the song go? “Oh what peace we
often forfeit. Oh what needless pain we bear. (Sing it with me
– loudly!) All because we do not carry everything to God in
prayer.” Jesus said (Matthew 11:28-30): “Come to me you
who are weary and heavily burdened and I will give you rest.
Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and
humble in heart, and you will find your rest. For my yoke fits
easy and my burden is light.” Let it go. Let it go, and
allow the spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline to
enter your life.
In
my first church, a young high school senior named Alan
approached me one evening and asked me if I really believed
what I said in the morning’s sermon. I assured him if I said
it I meant it. It was a sermon on the order of today’s in
which I had said one could do most anything one really wanted
to do. Alan’s older brother was academically gifted. Alan
was bright but not able to compete in that area, so he staked
out athletics for his arena. His counselor told him he was not
college material. Alan was asking me if he could make it in
college. I paraphrased Philippians 4:13 to him: “You can do
all things through the one who empowers you.” Then I added:
“Work as hard on your studies as you do on your jump
shot.” (I later learned that his counselor was a high school
drop- out.) Alan made the honor roll his last semester. Then
he went on to graduate from Adrian College. That was the last
I heard of him for years. Then one day a young lady in my
church heard his name, and told us he was her high school
principal. She added that he was terrific. I would venture
that he never placed a spirit of infirmity in any of his
students. What Alan discovered was the truth of Paul’s
statement, that
anyone who is in Christ is a new creation. The old has passed
and the new has come. He could, in fact, do anything through
the one who empowers him.
If
you don’t get anything else out of this sermon, learn this
passage from Philippians. “I can do all things through the
one who empowers me.” Say it with me. “I can do all things through the one who empowers me!”
By
God you can!
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It
seems appropriate to conclude this service with a Benediction
from Ephesians 3:20: “Now unto him who is able to accomplish
exceedingly more than you can ask or imagine through the power
at work within you, to God be all the glory in the church, and
in Christ Jesus, through all generations, forever and
forever." Amen.
Additional
Scripture references:
Matthew
7:7, 11:28
II Corinthians 5:17-20
Ephesians 2:19, 3:20
Philippians 4:13
I Peter 2:10
My
thanks to Dr. Steve Wende of the University United Methodist
Church in San Antonio, Texas, whose sermon both inspired and
served as the seed
for this message.
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